Fradam

First of all: Happy New Year everyone!

Strange sometimes to realise how quickly another 12 months pass by, and how fast the next 12 will as well. 2008 saw its fair share of newness in my life - new home, new friends, new job… just about anything that could change, did, and it all transpired in a short span of time. I wonder if all this rapid fire alteration of life could be responsible for the motion sickness that I’ve been feeling as of late. I’m told that I am meant to be looking at the roads and the outside world when in a moving vehicle, so that my brain isn’t fooled by what it feels (motion) versus what it sees (something constant, if I’m not looking outside). To transpose; motion sickness in life could result from holding onto what is constant whilst everything changes; rather than opening my eyes to watch the motion in my environment at the same time. Simply Red said it best perhaps - “I’ll keep holding on“. Hmm..

Change has been my age old enemy; a foe that I battled valiantly for many years and resisted the overtures for much time. Yet in 08, its clammy hand closed in and changed much with little thought or consideration for the consequences.. strangely enough; the majority has been to my delight.. a great delight. Much in fact, has been at my own instigation and my own provocation. So if the hand that wrought the change was my own, it makes me wonder why I should feel any sort of motion sickness - surely I should be enthralled by the thought that choices I made have bettered life, irrespective of the costs?

Tab posted a note yesterday about God having a plan for us (Jeremiah 29:11), and these past few weeks have been a testament to it. Maybe I just need to accept that it is all part of the plan… which is certainly a comforting thought. In fact, that thought reminds me that most of this change, I’ve actually enjoyed! So perhaps it is not the change itself…

Being as I’m moving at the moment, I think about the difficulty of moving a fridge - the fact that fridges don’t like being moved, but that when they do move, they need some time to sit upright at room temperature (i.e. not turned on) before they are used, to allow the oil to settle. I feel that is a little like me: I don’t like change, but when I do have to change, I need just a bit of time to sit upright at room temperature before I’m doing things again… definitely a clear cut case of fridge-id living!